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There has to be

There has to be something in between:

Investing every second of everyday into my future plans, relating my every move to “now, how can this get me into [college name]?,” dreaming about shopping for SAT II review books, having nightmares about bringing the incorrect type of pencil to a testing site, judging every person I interact with on their college plans/experience and charting how I compare to them, programming my brain to think in a matter that I would speak as if I were talking to a college interviewer, viewing my entire life based on how it appears in resume-form

AND

Taking advantage of my only four years of high school I’ll ever have, just being like “fuck it, YOLO,” getting so reckless every weekend, doing crazy shit with my friends just to say we did it, letting myself go crazy over a guy with no concern of what our futures hold, not worrying about my future but only picturing it in far-off dreams and “what-ifs”

whatever

leaving for ireland tomorrow……………….

getting teary-eyed just reading the sparknotes of the great gatsby.  need to reread this ish

the friends is on where danny devito plays the policeman stripper at phoebe’s bachelorette party, officer goodbody. what a versatile actor he is

Or tumblr can not save any of my recent posts… So many good ideas gone to waste! My apologies to my 25 followers who were deprived of my thoughts for like a week!!1